Mon, 31 Oct 2005 18:39:26 GMT

Ok well I'm putting this post on an extra secure friends filter. I suspect Ross is on my friends list in sheep clothing. He has popped back up right when I start to fall for someone. I can only deduce that it's from him reading friends only posts here. On the 24th..he made like 5 replies in this journal..so he's FOUND it. They were screened and immediately deleted. He added me to his msn this morning..well he tried. I blocked him. You guys all (mostly) know what he put me through...So this sucks that he's trying to get back in my life right now. All I think of is Dean. He's my last waking and sleeping thought. After what Ross put me through I could never love him again...much less even talk to him. I knew he stalked chicks he'd fucked before...he would show me their journals..but I thought since HE broke up with ME that he'd hate me forever and never talk to me again.

Why is he contacting me guys? I can't understand it at all.

Please advise trusted eljay friends who've been with me for years...Raivyn and fairybelle..god you've been on my friends list for like 5 years now!!!!!

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